Difference Engines

It’s always at first I feel inferior. Stupid. OK. That’s the way my brain works.


I always feel superior first. Like I know what I’m talking about. Or if I don’t know what I’m talking about it doesn’t occur to me that I’m wrong. I’m always right. Correct. My way to live is the way. It’s only when the intellect kicks in that I’m willing to consider another side.

Most of the time intellect kicks in before emotion gets me started acting. It didn’t used to be that way. Emotion often spoke before intellect. My life is a lot easier these days. I’ve got fewer reasons to apologize to other people. I think I listen to and empathize with others better. Since I’m predisposed to think I’m right I’m probably not as much better as I think I am.

That’s the way my brain seems to work.